Nothing Was Wrong With Me — I Was Just Sensitive to the World

I used to think that something was wrong with me. I would completely avoid large groups of people — parties, gatherings, social events. And if I was placed in those situations, I would stay on the outskirts and only engage in conversation if someone approached me first.

Not because I was shy or quiet (although that label was placed on me at a very young age), but because I feel everything energetically. I feel the underlying current of a room — the emotions, the people, the unspoken layers. It wasn’t that I didn’t like being around others; it was simply so overwhelming and exhausting.

I believed something must be wrong with me because other people seemed to navigate these spaces with ease. Meanwhile, I was trying to keep a smile on my face, even though everyone could tell I didn’t truly want to be there — because I didn’t.

It wasn’t until I began to understand the core makeup of who I am that everything started to shift and make sense. I went down the Astrology and Human Design rabbit hole to discover the why behind the way I move through the world.

In Human Design, I discovered that I am a 2/4 Emotional Projector — and wow, what a wake-up call. If you are unfamiliar with Human Design, this configuration represents someone designed for deep wisdom, here to guide through intuitive presence. A hermit who also thrives in connection, and someone whose emotional clarity arrives in waves.

Astrology brought even deeper validation:

Moon Conjunct Midheaven — Sensitive emotions and powerful intuition.

Moon Trine Pluto — A depth of feeling that creates rich emotional experiences and profound relationships.

Cancer Rising — A gentle presence. Someone who enters a room quietly rather than with a bang. Highly sensitive to environments, easily overwhelmed in unfamiliar spaces, yet always perceived as caring, sweet, innocent, and approachable.

This realization felt like a huge sigh of relief.

Nothing was wrong with me.

This is simply who I am.

This empowered me to embrace my unique gifts and truly harness them to my own advantage!

You have permission to be yourself — without fear that you are doing something wrong or that you should be like everyone else.

Embrace your difference, because it is your truth.

Stop apologizing.

Start loving every part of you.

I see you and you are so beautiful!

Blessings of Love & Light,

Carrie Symes